Proclaiming The Truth. Are you ready?
"Come, follow me...." Mk. 1:17
Meeting Yeshua :)
My Testimony I was a teenager in an abusive relationship, researching other religions, and meddling in occult activities trying to capture or regain some {even a little} control over my life. A life that had done a tailspin and was seemingly falling apart. Every time I tried to leave the relationship I was involved in - - - the abuse became worse; which would make the next several weeks miserable for me…Naturally, it did not start out abusive but progressed that way over a period of about 3 years. If you are wondering 'where were the parents?' Let me re-state this I was teenager {rebellious, sneaky, secretive in every way} My parent's would have helped me in any and every way possible were I to cooperate. Instead their attempts to gain access or knowlege into my life only succeeded in me pushing away from them even more. I had always been the "good girl," I did what was expected of me....was friends with people they approved of.....did well in school, was home on time, called when I would be late etc. Here was a situation I wanted to resolve by myself. I was in a very deep state of sadness all the time. Even when I was "happy" I wasn't really, it was just so that people wouldn't ask me questions. At about the 2 year mark I was simply exhausted, very little, seemed to matter at this point. If he would accuse me of this or that or call me names or simply try to start an argument...I would just agree with him or sit in silence. I did not even want to put forth the effort anymore. It's almost like being a wild bird in a cage by a window....You can see the outside, it looks wonderful, you can even see the door- - - you can get close to the door....but if you touch the door all the sirens go off and the keeper comes and ensures that you don't escape. I felt like I was stuck in a never-ending game of chess I always had to be one step ahead of what he was thinking or what he might do... The physical altercations came to a very dangerous point when at one time he threatened me with a sword....and only a few months thereafter the situation progressed from physical/mental abuse to an even more personal abuse that has taken me at least 3 1/2 years after seperation, to, for the most part heal from. If you caught the hint in the italicised word 'personal' even now I do not call that --by word --what it was. My worldly rebellious attitude towards God left me standing alone. After all of my rebellion and god-seeking everywhere else…when the pain became overbearing and I broke down---shattered, I was in my bedroom crying next to my bed on the floor and I started talking to God or whoever/whatever might be listening. I began praying and I grabbed a children's Bible and said, “Hey, if you’re there, help me, show me that you are there. I want to know who you are.” The Lord's presence, filled the room and wrapped around me {it literally felt like a hug/ an embrace.} That was the most awesome moment in my life! El Elyon, [<God Most High] literally, embraced me as I wept for a Savior. And I hadn’t even asked to be forgiven yet! He declared His existence, His Sovereign presence. It was the literal {feeling} of a hug and a deep sense of peace welled up within my spirit. {continued below} Finally after quite a few minutes—The Spirit prompted me to open a magazine that had come in the mail and turn to the back. When I got to the last two pages there was a 24 hour abuse hotline phone number. I called it and talked to someone until about Once I turned to Yeshua—He delivered fully, completely, in every way. I started attending my sister-in-law’s church by invitation and was saved. About 6-7 months later in March, 2004, I was baptized. Going to Church was intimidating...I didn't know those people and I wasn't familiar with the Bible really I only knew the 'Christmas story, and Easter story' that I was told when I was little ...Christs' birth, death, and resurrection. But the people there were awesome they helped me, listened to me, answered questions, and my Church became a safe haven to me...a second home so-to-speak. Christians are NOT perfect that is why we come to Christ, we ask Him for help. My walk with Yeshua has been a rocky one. I have faltered in faith, slipped, stumbled, and, flat out went in reverse at times. However as I look back at poems and jornalings I have written…one common theme survives in them. The Spirit would ignite a “Godly-sorrow” within me. Even if I tried to ignore it, defy, or ,elude it. Consistently Yeshua has pursued, chased, tugged, and, loved me into submission. Is He stern? Yes He has been at times. I have some examples that I have written accounts of. But His sternness is always out of Love. It is written, “Those whom I love, I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent.” Rev. 3:19 Of the Lord, I wrote, on March 12, 2008 ~ In my relationship with You I have experienced the awesome freedom that comes from Your forgiveness; the fullness of Your Holy Spirit that swept me up when I first confessed belief in You. I have felt the painful distance of Your presence as You waited patiently for me to obey, even as I longed for Your redemption. Through Your loving kindness [You pursued me.] Your love consumed my heart with sorrow until I came to You upon my knees under the weight of it all…[You chased me] out of darkened corridors and quickly withdrew, when I refused to listen, leaving me with no sense of You. In Your good and perfect timing, [You tugged at my heart] drawing me before Your throne. [You spoke to me, an invitation] a decision… “choose me, abide in me, and I in you.” …..You continuously, undeniably, made Yourself known to me. You refused to allow my mind to sink into condemnation. Out of guilt I refused to face You—refused to acknowledge Your disappointment. Fear drove me into hiding from You. Your Word answers: “Am I only a God nearby, declares the LORD, and not a God far away? Can anyone hide in secret places so that I cannot see him?” declares the LORD. “Do not I fill heaven and earth?” You pursued me with a tender affection and drew me out of the muck by Your own hand, time and time again. Your love consoled me through the tears, Your hand healed what was broken and it is in Your presence that I find my refuge. It was through Your consistent love and pursuit that I came to trust again. ~ Jehovah is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made. Jehovah upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. Ps. 145:13-14 Today I am happy to report that the Lord has blessed me so much! In bringing me to salvation, healing me from my past, loving me through it all...and providing for all my needs including even the job I have right now. He has helped me forgive and even pray for the one who hurt me so deeply, in hopes, that he too- - - will come to the Lord. "Jehovah reigns, He is robed in majesty; Jehovah is robed in majesty and is armed with strength." ps. 93:1 " For Jehovah will not reject His people; He will never forsake His inheritance." ps. 94:14 Yeshua tells us, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." JOHN 16:33 NIV It was never God's will for such a thing to happen to me; He identifies with the pain and suffering I went through. He loves me unconditionally and has helped me through the healing process. Evil things do happen because we have an adversary in the world and not everyone will come under the Lord's sovereign reign and submit their lives to Him, people rebel against God....But a day is coming and is swiftly approaching when every knee will bow, and every tongue will confess that Yeshua is LORD over all. Victory for the saints over the world and the "god" of this world [ <-who lies, steals, kills, and destroys] is nearly at hand. A time when Yeshua will reign over the earth and all will submit to His sovereign authority. I have a relationship with the King of Kings and there are no words, no testimony that can give justice to how amazing that is! Yeshua is real, He is alive on THIS DAY. No matter what you think about Church, or about the fallible people who try to represent Him......Fix your eyes on Jesus- - - Fix your mind on Jesus and just ask.....ASK HIM to show you who God is, who He is. I guarantee you if you are honestly seeking He will answer. Period, that's it. Don't ask your friends, don't look to me, or Pat Robertson, or Joel Osteen, or Rev. Wright.....Don't look to the newest "religous fad" Look towards heaven with a sincere heart and say, "I want to know; show me who you are." Your life will never be the same. Whatever sins you have commited in your life He will no longer remember once you turn to Him..He will bear the burden so that you may live in freedom. There is nothing too large, too bad, too aweful to seperate you from the love of Christ. Please, please take a minute and seek Him. Afterall, you can "only" gain eternal life from the next couple of minutes from the One who loves you so much more than you could imagine or comprehend. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? Romans 8:31-35.............. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord... Romans 8:38-39 
Yeshua asks: "Do you believe in the Son of Man?" John 9:35
